It might not happen to you...
or to me. All the fuss of weddings and engagements has forced me to consider the question that all women my age ask themselves, "Will I ever get married?". I always assumed I would. Growing up in the south you take classes in high school like "How to trap yourself a lawyer by the age of 23?". Apparently I skipped that one because I was too busy getting high or practicing or something. Anyway, I am very happy for all my friends who have decided to take the plunge. They have found good and decent partners and I have no doubt that they will all be happy in the marriages. But as I survey the lot of available men and I am beginning to realize that the older I get the more bleak things look. Even though I love all men of all colors and background, I have always thought that someday, somehow I would end marrying a black man. But the older I get the more I realize that this may not happen for the vast majority of black men that I am attracted to are either gay, married, or only date women who are not black, or all three. It just doesn't look good or the home team. Now I must admit that I am in no hurry. At this present moment most men make me sick to my stomach and I could care less if I am in relationship. But it would be nice to know that I can attract nice, American, not fat or old or disgusting men. Is that to much to ask for? For once I would like to be approached by a man that has good job, who likes women, who smells good, and who is tall enough that I can look him in the eye. I know that is a tall order, no pun intended, but hey, I have three degrees, I am a good looking chick, I am smart, I think I deserve at least that. I can deal with not having a happily ever after if I can have at least that.



